Tuesday, April 29, 2014

From CJ With Love


And I am posting this from up north. I am mom-sitting again this week.

Alhamdulillah water is back in the taps; so I need not worry about rationing water or getting water from the old telaga (as in pumping, bukan angkat dengan timba ye..) Hairan macamana Taiping, the wettest place in Msia pun tak ada air. But it has in fact been raining every afternoon that I am here (twice every afternoon, mind you).

And I am re-learning old words I have not used for some time; celuih, cemuih, kareh, keluboq. And whatever else mum had said. Nak tergelak pun ada.

But most of the time, I am just keeping mum company. And most importantly cepat2 menyahut whenever she calls (fyi she had call me Ida, Jiah atau nama2 sisters lain yang dia teringat masa tu) - she's a teeny bit worried if she's home alone (as if she ever were). Dan mendengar cerita lama mak, like when arwah ayah masuk meminang (how sweet). Atau macamana boleh jadi orang CJ; atau siapa yang ikut tabiat arwah ayah; atau di mana mak mula mengajar dulu. Dll.

Dan menjenguk di belakang mak bila mak tunjuk apa yang dibacanya. She loves reading (she will hit 90 this year and is still an avid reader; sesetengah kawan terkejut bila mendapat tahu mak saya masih membaca dan until recently masih menjahit sendiri baju kedah yang dipakainya).

Dan juga menjenguk garden mak yang sudah lama terbiar; although her flaming red amaryllis was timelessly gorgeous after the afternoon rain.

Kata kawan saya semasa baru kehilangan bondanya, "Macam ni rasanya bila tak ada emak; baru tahu." Tak dapat nak saya bayangkan. Kasihankan bonda yang tua, saya enggan berdoa agar dipanjangkan umurnya. Saya doakan rahmat dan redha dan ampun Allah untuk bonda yang dikasihi.

Saya berharap juga akan doa anda untuk ibu saya. Syukran.




~ xoxo


2 comments:

  1. my mak lately has not been well. she becomes extra emotional and sentimental. bila kami nak balik kl, dia mesti nangis. at times dia suruh delay2 balik. sedih betul skang ni time nak balik. and so, these days i pun kerap balik on weekends. she cannot cook at all sbb mata langsung tak nampak. i balik sbb dgn niat nak tolong2 dia kat rumah.

    and i can't imagine kalau mak takda cemana. i still doa mak abah dipanjangkan umur, maybe a bit selfish as i don't think i can take it yet, at this single status. sigh.

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